Hiii Guys!!! Oh, how much I missed you aLL ;)
Where do I begin? The past few weeks have been rough, emotionally and mentally, that I don't even know where to start. My repetitive action of bad decision making has once again bit me in the ass; leaving me to question myself along with my value of character. For as long as I can remember I have never been confronted about any of these characteristics, and because of that I was never mindful to what the end results may be or the feelings of someone else.
What’s even more disturbing is knowing that the same behaviors I’ve being checked on are the same that I too had once walked away from. How was I not able to identify these traits, I ask myself. Why should I expect someone else to accept my bull, when I know I didn’t?
I had to take a step back and really look at myself; why should someone else have to take notice in what you're doings Crys, how well do YOU know yourself?
I can sit here and talk you to death but who am I kidding, you don’t need to hear my failures; it’s all about solutions. With that being said, what I will do is take what I have learned {about myself} and gradually develop by showing self-growth. At the end of the day I have no one to blame but myself; however, I must say I am grateful, I now know things about me that I had no idea existed.
Am I proud of them, absolutely not! Quite honestly, every time I think of it, I become even more disgusted…SMH. Its time I grow up and be the woman I KNOW I am.
I'm sharing this with you guys because sometimes the buildup and pressure can become overwhelming and besides we always need that extended ear. If you find yourself in the same or similar predicament but maybe a little intimidated to put yourself out there, then I encourage you to use my confession as your stepping stone. It is unhealthy to continue throughout life and not speak on our emotional distress, it gives no resolution.
The most valuable lesson learned was to be more mindful, to others and towards my decision making, but most importantly learning how to confront and correct myself without anyone having too.
Always remember: Live life. Have fun. Stay motivated
Crys ;)
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